BikerSkylla – Schizoaffective

or growing where you can

Once upon a time, summer of 2022: I had my first real psychotic episode. In the fall I had finally found a psychotherapist and in the first session she instructed me to keep track of the basic things:

1. Lot of Water
2. Healthy Food
3. Little Sugar
4. Relaxation Exercises
5. Workouts

She told me these once and I successfully recalled them a few days later to write her the degree of fulfillment.
It may seem trivial, but reminding yourself of the elements a bunch of times each day makes all the different when your down.

So first things first, before you can climb a mountain and complete the tasks that have been waiting for you, you need to make room for the basic things your psyche and body need.

Like the grass in the picture we can even grow in seemingly hindering circumstances when just the basic elements are met. I was always reminded of that fact as I walked past this grass every other day on my way for groceries.

During the silent couple of months I was numb. Taking care of myself or doing chores only happened before and during the time spent with others. After I would crawl back into my hole. I just haven’t had enough passion, creativity and most of all drive to post anything. Now I want to celebrate that the basic elements are taken care of, the feelings (especially about my self-worth) are back and I can write again.

PS: It feels like I’m so much slower and loaded with self doubt compared to the manic posts last year, but I will keep in mind that a healthy psyche is slow and steady.

Stay tuned, Stay curious, Stay healthy.